Today marks the start of Lent season. The time for repentance, prayer, and fasting for 40 days, starting from Ash Wednesday up until Easter Sunday. This is a time for us Catholics to develop our relationship with God and purify our lives. We do this by praying, abstaining from meat on Fridays, and doing acts of kindness. In addition, most Catholics choose to sacrifice or commit to something for 40 days. Examples include giving up alcohol, sweets, fast-food, etc. I have decided to go on a Chick-fil-A fast for 40 days. I tried to give up Chick Fil A two years ago and failed within a week so wish me luck!
The reason why I felt the need to write about Lent is because my relationship with God has been somewhat complicated for the last couple of years. I was raised Catholic and I attend mass almost every Sunday. However, I haven’t been as devoted to God as I know I should be. I have become more of a “traditional” Catholic in the sense that I simply follow the traditions without any true meaning. Every now and then I try to mend that relationship with God but I always end up getting distracted and gear towards the wrong path again. I have allowed toxic relationships and habits to take over my life and well-being. I got to the point where I found myself repeatedly crying over people who enjoyed hurting me, spending money on unnecessary items as a way to cope with my lack of happiness, and getting angry at anyone who tried to offer me advice. In order to reduce the anxiety, depression, and frustration that I was feeling, I decided to remove social media apps from my phone (except for snapchat because those streaks took a lot of effort to maintain) and focus on my health and reevaluate my life. And during this time I have found God again. Perhaps it is cliché to always turn to God during your lowest points of your life. Or perhaps it’s a sign that God does have a plan and he perfectly timed my decision to change with Lent season so that I can truly focus on my spiritual, mental, and physical well-being.
I am not sure how long my social media “cleansing” will last or how much of a devoted Catholic I will become. But for now, I plan to do Lent the right way. Eating more cows.